So, we have gotten through about a month of daycare. Miles goes Monday – Thursday for the entire day, and then on Fridays I work from home. Each week I have felt like a child on Christmas Eve on Thursdays because I am so excited to have three days with him, and each week I have cried as the weekend comes to a close because I don’t want to take him back to daycare.
I will be the first to admit, I have been protective over our mother+son time together; not leaving much room for husband and wife time. My emotions seem to overwhelm me even when I put him down for bed sometimes. I feel like I am acting ridiculous. I literally don’t want to go to therapy because that would mean more time away from him. On the other hand, I really enjoy my job and my work. When I am thinking logically, I know that being a working mom is going to turn out fine. We just can’t make it on one salary, or even a part time salary for me.
This weekend, my in-laws came to visit (Lance’s parents), and my extremely generous mother-in-law offered to watch Miles if we wanted to go out for a little bit. I felt the anxiety rush to my stomach. I didn’t want to leave him even for a few hours, but I knew I needed to do something alone with Lance.
This morning it wasn’t looking like we were going to get away, when Miles took a nap, and Lance and I got showered and out the door before he could wake up; leaving him with my in-laws. Something about leaving while he was sleeping made me feel better. We went to….wait for it…..Home Depot. After 10 minutes there, we said, “What can we do, now?” That’s when Lance had the great idea to go get a beer, AT A BAR! OF COURSE! It’s 3 p.m. and we are going to the bar for a beer because WE HAVE NO BABY WITH US! We just sat for an hour and chatted, but it was fun and he made me laugh and feel pretty. It was really nice. I’m so glad we did it.
The nursery is ready and Miles is busting out of the bassinet in our room, so I think it’s time to move him into it. I was going to do it tonight, but I think we will wait one more!
I never knew I could miss someone so much. It’s funny how priorities change when you have a baby to love.
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